100th Post!

I was going to say something exciting for my 100th post, but I can't. When I decided to write this post, it was with one purpose.

I reject my atheism.

I have to sleep in a bit because I have class tomorrow, so I will probably flesh this out in another post, but for now I will sketch this idea.

I don't reject my lack of belief in a God. I reject my atheism. To define myself as an atheist, I define myself as a naught. I lack a belief in God, therefore my being is a lack of belief. I reduce my being to what I am not. I refuse to understand myself and allow others to understand me by what I lack.

I read once that Albert Camus said "I do not believe in God and I am not an atheist." I used to wonder what that meant; what he could possibly mean by that. Today, I was reading his notebooks and came across this quote and I finally understood. He is, not isn't. His being cannot be defined by a lack. And today I affirm with him that:

I do not believe in God and I am not an atheist.